Praise God From Whom All Blessings Flow!

It's so wonderful to be here tonight. Oh, how I have missed you all and how deeply I have missed writing. It is amazing how healing it is to share feelings, thoughts, hurts and hurrahs. To commit to 'paper' a desire to be faithful and to not lose hope. It helped me stay the course on many dark nights. And now I am back and there is much and so little to share. Since that post telling you my house had sold...that deal also fell through! And so, we received another offer, our 4th, that same day and finally there is a sold sign out front! I stared at the sign with mixed feelings; sad at all I had lost and glad to have finally made the decision to sell and proud that I had found the courage and strength to take steps. But oh, how the tears rolled down! I thought they would never stop. There are good days and bad days in respect to my marriage. There are days when I feel sure that a miracle is just moments away and then there are days when it feels like this conflict will have no end. There have been many voices, friends and family, carrying messages of discouragement and defeat. "Give up Becky. Move on. You've done more than anyone could have asked of you. Let go. He's not worth it. You deserve better." And then I hear the only voice that matters and it beckons me to love. And I pick up the phone and say, "hey honey, how's your day going? Have I told you today that I love you?" So, that's where it's at. Still clinging to that mighty Oak, still standing strong in the storm, still believing, hoping, praying and giving thanks for all I have.